Hi, I joined this site because the little description really got to me. Im dealing with anxiety and depression and I live in a very isolated town in Labrador. My dad is 50 years old and was diagnosed with esophageal cancer about two years ago. Treatment has stopped as it has spread back to his brain. At this point he's starting to have a hard time remembering and expressing his thoughts. He's also become very slow and weak, but is still able to take care of himself. Him and my mom divorced about 3 years ago, leaving me and my brother (who's here half the time when he's not at my moms) to live with my dad. I'm 23 years old and I hate being home.. I love being close to my dad but living here is so hard sometimes.. and i know it's just going to get harder as this progresses. I feel so alone.. my mom is very passive, my brother is only 15 so he doesn't fully understand, most of my extended family live about 6 hours away, my friends here are occupied with their own lives (they're there for me but baducally just say they're sorry). I'm angry at everything, Im sad a thing everything and I have no motivation to do anything. I'm definitely going through anticipatory grief and it's making me hate myself because I just want the last time with my dad to be meaningful. Im so zoned out and emotionless when im with him because it's either that or I would just be crying the entire time. i really hope this group will help with my loneliness and fears.