Hi Tiffany,
Grief can seem so overwhelming and lonely. Not many people understand the depths of grief. And it can be particularly difficult when you aren't given time to prepare for a death and brace yourself for the "world shifting" (as you state above). The close relationship you were privileged to have with your mother, makes the loss all the more devastating....
The Canadian Virtual Hospice has a website that deals solely with grief, that many people have found helpful. It is available at:
www.mygrief.ca. Please consider this resource, as it highlights the experience of others who share their stories about loss.
Please know grief is a difficult journey, it is difficult. By sharing your emotions here you are processing the impact your Mom's death is having on you as a person. We hope you are able to find others to support you so that you know you are not alone.
Simone
(CVH Moderator)