Dear Alhutch1
I have been reading and rereading your words. The words, along with the black background, paint a picture of a loving family torn apart with grief and feelings of guilt. I am so very sorry. Each day will be a stark reminder that Tianna is not there.
Do you, your wife and daughter have resources in your community that you have found helpful? People to talk with, sit with, be with?
I found these words on the home page of The Compassionate Friends:
"You are not alone
When your child has died, suddenlty it seems like all meaning has been drained from your life.
When you wake in the morning, it's difficult to get out of bed, much less live a 'normal' life.
All that was right with the world now seems wrong and you're wondering whem, or if, you'll ever feel better:
We've been there ourselves and understand some of the pain you are feeling right now. We are truly glad that you have found us but profoundly saddened by the reason. We know that you are trying to find your way in a bewildering experience for which no one can truly be prepared."
NYour life has indeed been forever changed with the passing of Tianna. Thank you for giving words to what happened and how you are feeling - that can be very hard to do.
Warmly
Katherine